Laziness

January 30, 2010 at 11:29 am (Uncategorized)

This is me right now… the snow outside resembles this too

I have officially declared today to do absolutely nothing. This past week was exhausting! I actually fell asleep last night at 8:30 and slept nearly 12 hours. Guess that’s what happens when you get 4 hours of sleep every day of the week. Next week I have no exams and 1 paper to do, which is actually an interesting topic for once. I can finally go to school and just learn and relax. I miss those elementary school days where you had to sit there and color and make sure you don’t go outside the lines. Whatever happened to those kinds of assignments? Those were my easy As and I need those grades.

I registered the other day  for my classes starting in March… I had to made sure I got an easy quarter. I didn’t even get last summer off school so I haven’t had a break since Fall 2008. I’m in dire need of an easy quarter! My motivation is going down the drain. I’m happy that Monday I only have class for 2 hours and I’m off Wednesday and Friday! Oh I how I love life!

Yesterday I had to go to my health appointment at the hospital in order to volunteer. I was only expecting to get 1 shot, instead I got 3…now my left arm is going to be paralyzed for 3 days. If only I knew what I was going in for, I would have rescheduled it… I didn’t know you had to go through so much pain in order to do good for others. Oh well, I can’t wait to start volunteering anyways. There’s nothing more fun and relaxing than playing with kids in the middle of the day.

Well I only have 4 more days until I get to tell about my exciting news… 🙂

Till then…

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Another day…

January 24, 2010 at 5:41 pm (Uncategorized)

Joke for the day…

Two antennas met on a roof, fell in love and got married. The ceremony wasn’t much,but the reception was great.

Every since I left the hospital, it seems like everything has been falling into place. It typically seems to be that whenever something bad or drastic happens, there is always good that comes out at the end. I’ve had an amazing couple of weeks and I’m looking forward to the next 2 as well. It’s not like anything major has been  happening, but I feel upbeat, energized, and motivated. I seriously feel like dancing, but I know I can’t because I don’t need to set off my dizziness all over again. However, a girl can only dream…

Well this weekend consist of 4 papers, 2 exams to study for, and 2 homework assignments. Sounds like a lot, but I’m not stressing over it. I know I’ll get everything done. Gotta love midterm week though…..only 4 more weeks left till finals. I feel like this quarter didn’t even exist. Oh well…soon I’ll only have 1 more year left of school and that’ll feel amazing!

I’m going to get back and enjoy my lazy Sunday before I start doing some work.

Hope everyone has a great week!

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Amazed

January 20, 2010 at 6:30 pm (Uncategorized)

Well this has turned out to be quite an exciting week for me.

One, I just got accepted into a volunteer position that I think will be soo much fun!

Two, I’ve embarked on a little project that to my surprise is becoming a big success. I can not say anything about it now just so that the word doesn’t get out…but many people already know what’s going on. I just want to say I’m amazed and shocked by it all. I’m so excited to update you about this later. If you truly want to know what’s going on…feel free to e-mail me, text me, facebook me…and I’ll inform you on it.

Here’s your joke for the day…

If money doesn’t grow on trees, then why do banks have branches?

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Gambling

January 19, 2010 at 12:54 am (Uncategorized)

Today I went in for an appointment with my ENT to see what my options are for my dizziness. I’m at that point in my life where I need to do something because it’s affecting everything I do now. I’ve had to quit many activities I wish I could do either because it’s too risky or because I simply can’t do it anymore.

I’m down to 2 options… a chemical labyrinthectomy or a surgical labyrinthectomy. Both simply mean destroying the inner ear… one chemical destroys it and the other is a removal of the inner ear parts.

However…one small problem…. the doctors are not sure exactly which ear is causing me all my vertigo and balance problems. I’m confident that it’s my right side since everything tends to go wrong on that side. I’m having to get a second opinion about what I should do. Basically it’s a gamble in deciding whether I should go have surgery or not. The worse case scenario is that I feel worse that I do now everyday for the rest of my life and best case scenario is that it reduces my dizziness so I can live a better life.

I hate the gambling part… I’ve never been a good gambler…and never one with such luck.

I’ve got a lot to think about…my pros and cons.

Should I leave it alone and deal with what I have now and regret ever trying to make it better?

Or should I take the risk and see what my outcome is?

I wish someone else could make my decision for me…

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New Outlook

January 16, 2010 at 1:09 pm (Uncategorized)

Joke of the day…

When I go to West Africa I’m Ghana make sure Togo to Mali and then I can say I’ve Benin Timbuktu.

That joke makes no sense but it sounded funny. I know I haven’t updated much the last couple of days. I have actually been doing much much better with everything. My dizziness is back to its normal state and feels as if nothing had happened. Spending 4 days at the hospital I think changes you,  even just slightly. I have never had so much time to literally sit there and think about everything and I mean everything! I was surrounded by people who were much much older than me and even near their death bed. It made me think of how much life I have yet to live.

I think that my stay in the hospital made me want to appreciate every day that I have a little more. I was so wrapped up in feeling like I gotta get somewhere with my life. I gotta finish school, get a job, get married, have kids, etc… but what I realize is that they will all happen someday. If everything happens now, then what more is there to look forward to? Everyone has their own pace and I know that I need to stop stressing about my future and just live each day as they come.

I just got accepted for another volunteer position last night and I start training next week.  I have an interview for a different one on Monday. I’m very excited to get started with everything.

I’m almost all caught up with school…just a lot of textbook reading…eh

Well I’m going to go get some Starbucks…. *my addiction*…. and get a little caffeine kick to start the day.

Here’s a picture to laugh at….

This is my Rangerette Sister…she was an ornament

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Progress

January 13, 2010 at 3:37 pm (Uncategorized)

Joke of the day…

A man from upper Egypt went to a doctor for a check up, the doctor told him you are Ok but you must walk every day at least for 10 kilometers.

After a week the doctor received a call from the man who sounded very tired, Doctor please I need your help the doctor asked where are you? I almost reached Sudan now, may I have a rest please!

*Glad my doctor didn’t tell me that!!*

Well things are looking up now. The last couple of days I have been able to walk without a problem.  My dizziness is starting to subside and go back to normal.  I am avoiding stairs and other risky things right now. The last thing I want is to have to go to the hospital for the 5th time in one month.

I’m in the process of trying to reclaim my life and catch up on the schoolwork. I also in the middle of trying to get start my volunteer activities and apply for future research positions.

I realized that the only way for me to stay motivated through school and to get through it is to find something that makes it worthwhile to me. Research is something I think would be fun to do, especially in genetics. I would be able to work on my own big project with a mentor instead of sitting in a class I really don’t want to be in. My school offers a research scholars program that would give me science credits for the number of hours I do research. This way I could avoid taking 3 classes. I have so many hours left of science electives that I have to choose from and take before I graduate. Most of them are not that exciting to me. I’m not a huge science person, I only like a particular field of science and I’m only good at that particular field. However, you are required to take alllll the different sciences if you are a science major and that’s what is killing me right now. My GPA is hanging by a thread. If only I stayed in Texas… it may not have been that bad. Oh well…the past is the past.

Looks like this week I’m doing nothing but studying. Oh the joy of my life…. at least I’m halfway done with this quarter!!

I have my appointment tomorrow to get an ENG test done on my balance system. Hoping on monday I could discuss with my doctor some options I could take to maybe try to resolve some problems.

This is what I wish I was doing… I miss it too much!

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90 hours and I’m outta there…

January 12, 2010 at 12:34 am (Uncategorized)

Ok so I’m finally out of the hospital….whoo!…however I probably should have stayed since I’m not exactly “well”. They were going to keep me longer but I wanted to get out. I seemed to be doing ok this morning and got to walking without a walker just like I had planned. However after leaving the hospital, my dizziness seemed to have gotten worse and so I’m a little worried about everything.

I’m going to try to go to school tomorrow and see how it goes. Hopefully I will get through all of it without a problem. I do have some tough decisions to make so I’ve got a lot of thinking to do these next few days.

I do have appointments coming up to try to do something about my dizziness.

Will update more tomorrow, hopefully on a more positive note.

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83 hours and counting

January 11, 2010 at 12:29 pm (Uncategorized)

So it’s monday and I’m missing school this very minute. Oh how I love how I’m going to have to make up all this work at once.

Yesterday I made it a goal to walk past the door and hopefully out of this place… I made it out the door and out to the hallway of my unit, went out to the elevators and back. I’m making some progress. My mom is here pushing me to get up more often and go for a walk. It seems to be doing me some good. I no longer need someone to hold me up.

My goal today is get rid of my walker. I finally got my heart monitor off this morning so I’m just HOPING to get out of here today!

I really don’t know how people can stay in a hospital for so long.  It’s been sad around here because the woman next to me may never make it out of here. I’m the youngest one in my unit and I’m surrounded by people who have gone through strokes, seizures, and other neurological problems. They ruled out my seizures on Saturday morning, but all I’m doing is getting physical therapy. I’m not sure why I’m still in this unit.

Well I’m going to bug the nurses….be back later

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Procrastination

January 10, 2010 at 1:15 pm (Uncategorized)

Joke of the day…

Procrastination is the greatest laborsaving intention of all times.

I wish I had a view like this!!

I can’t believe it’s only Sunday…feels like I’ve been here a week though. My days are long and boring.

I don’t have much to update…my doctor just came in and said we’ll there isn’t much we can do for you. All we are waiting on is for you to walk to get out of here. It’s a slow process but it’s been getting better.  Yesterday I made it as far as the door (with my walker).

Today I’m hoping to make it as far as I can out of this place.

My mother is coming in so she’ll be able to keep me company all day. That’ll be nice.

Today I’m attempting to do homework again. Hoping it’ll be a little more successful than yesterday. I got 1 page done so far  of the 3 papers I have to do, and 1 chemistry problem done of 15 total. Now that I finally got the TV to work it’s become more of a distraction and I can’t get anything done. I’ve been watching the Law and Order SVU marathon and once one show starts, my eyes are glued to the TV since it’s so interesting. Then I tell myself ok I’m going to turn off the tv after this show… nope I get sucked into watching the next one and the next. Oh well… it’s not on right now so I guess I better get started with my work.

I got delivered breakfast at 7:00 am this morning and decided to completely ignore it. It’s not like I was looking forward to it anyways. Lunch is in 2 hours…blah.

Well I will update if anything changes….

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Meet my new best friend… my walker…

January 9, 2010 at 9:27 pm (Uncategorized)

Ok I’m officially bored…when I wished for a day to do absolutely nothing… I take that back…I want a day to do absolutely everything I can!

Here’s the update… neuro came in again for the 5th time to give me an exam I know by heart. No word about whether I’m getting further testing or not. I just started with physical therapy this afternoon to start walking again. I know what it feels like to be a 90 year old with a walker…not exactly the most thrilling ride of your life. Apparantely walking is what’s going to get me out of this hospital. Although, I already asked a couple of my visitors to grab a wheelchair and wheel me out of this place…hmm maybe tomorrow. As far as my dizziness, it’s still driving me crazy. I have medicine to supposedly help me, but it doesn’t seem to have much of an effect.

My dinner arrived at 4:40…even worse than I expected and it was meatloaf and gravy with green beans. Not that I don’t naturally like that stuff when it’s homemade, but it looked DISGUSTING! My nurse came in and asked if I ate anything…I told her I wasn’t hungry…she walked away and I immediately open up a bag of chips and cookies my visitors have brought me. LOL!

I finally got TV service…a little more entertaining than people watching.

I also got my homework… why does this weekend have to be crammed with papers? It’s a little hard to focus when you’re drugged up and dizzy. Oh well, I’m doing them anyways. Hopefully it won’t turn out so bad. It reminds me of the one time I had a stomach flu and I had a video presentation I was suppose to do over the weekend for my American sign language class. I remember that I took all this medicine and I literally forgot everything that happened after that. I did the video and I had proof of it later. My teacher decided to display some of the videos and chose to display mine after some really good ones. In my head I couldn’t recall if I did it in the first place. So I’m watching it and I’m half sitting in a chair and half not. I have my pajamas on backwards, my hair in a messy side pony tail and I’m signing a made up story that I hardly knew the signs for. It was mortifying to watch and of course my teacher gave me a C. I should have gotten an A for trying…lol.

Anyways I’m going to stop writing a novel since I could really go on all day. I have no one to talk to so this is better than talking to some wall…otherwise, neuro would really think I’d have some problems. Might cost me another day in the hospital to make sure I’m not “losing it”.

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